I was searching and searching for a way to find something of my own that allowed my mind to be free from pressure. 

Pressure of performing well. Pressure of expectations of others and myself. Pressure of tradition and doing what others do. Pressure of success. 

I deleted all my social media. My personal Facebook account (until I undeleted it for marketplace reasons) I went ahead and deleted all of my friends even those who are family members. I didn't do it because lack of love or what not but rather it felt ingenuine. Facebook/Instagram has gone from a "connection from a distance" place to a place of comparison, passively scrolling, no real engagement and simply disconnect and I was done with that. I wanted to find a place where I could be my full self. Where I could write everything down and the people who truly wanted to support me or relate to the posts that I create would find them someway and become a real true connection with communication and open dialogue rather than something so foreign to me in likes, comments that really don't open the door to any conversation, and more than 90% of the followers being nothing more than an egotistical number. 

So I decided to wipe it clean. For the sake of my wellbeing and to aim toward a more connected future. Where I am here in the now more living the life that I dreamed. The dream of simply being alive and having courage to be me.